I just wanted to let you guys know that we have our better computer all better and functioning now. This is the benefit of living with a people who knows his way around all electronic and is willing to put some money in it. Aaanndd we figured out what got my tablet + Photoshop so bitchy, and it works like a dream now!

I can't describe how awesome it felt to be able to draw fine, hair-like lines and the tablet was on time, drawing exactly when the pen touched the tablet. Ah, this luxury.
Which of course means I have a huge urge to draw, which I can't do if I'm a responsible student. I am, I can't just choose not to study. Tomorrow I have physics exam and I must say I'm really out of energy with studying. I have had huge motivation issues doing this period, and I really need a break soon. Which I will luckily have soon. And then I'll spam your inboxes with a lot of art. And I need to get into serious business with my Christmas gifts. I'm sorry I can't include all the cool people's characters in the picture I'm planning on because I'm so busy and I didn't come to think of it early enough. But at least I'll be giving out some Christmasy spirit, and joining the ESS this year. (which I also seriously need to get started on, I have plans but nothing actual drawn or sketched)
Writing this journal just to get a short pause on my physics, it sort of seems like ancient Greek to me at this point. Well, as long as I'll pass the test I'll be happy. It's not a course I need in my life later on, but it's part of the further physics' curriculum so I need to take it.
And because I hurt my knee last week and it's just gotten worse and I haven't been able to get an appointment with any doctor, I can't go riding tomorrow. I haven't gone in many weeks and it irritates me a lot. But in the other hand we don't have very kind and easy horses in our stables so maybe it's a nice break from them. I've lately gotten a little bit nervous around horses, due to horses trying all they got to buck me off, rear, take off, bolt, spook, kick, bite... and so on. Unless I've got a very steady horse I won't even adjust the stirrups from saddle anymore because I can never trust that the horse is not going anywhere. I'd really need to ride a steady calm (maybe a little bit older) horse for a change for a little while. I used to be a daredevil as a kid but these days I know that I should be careful. I've only fallen off a few times during my about 9 years of riding, so I'm quite good in staying on. It's just the fact that I've ridden green horses so long that I've learned to expect the unexpected and also become a little too paranoid. If my horse perks its ears and looks at something when I'm mounted I instantly prepare for a take off. Even if the horse is just looking. No I won't get tense because I know then the horse is very likely to take off, I just sit tight, lean back and press my heels down. And I don't enjoy jumping anymore, either. Because the horses do the sort of gigantic leaps, bolt off or just are shy of the fences. You never know which one will be when you make your way to the next jump. I used to be quite good at jumping at one point, I jumped every week, but these days I'm just glad if it's only once a year. Because if I tell my teacher I want the calmer horses she goes like "what, but you can ride the green so well and you never fall." But I must tell you that one of my fav horses (or actually he's a pony) is a little black pony gelding called Mustikka (Blueberry). He scares off the little riders but when he's with experienced riders he's gorgeous. And he's spunky, he likes to buck and sometimes take off, but he's so small and round that you can only laugh when he does that. And the other times he's just dead out lazy, hardly moving his legs unless you convince him that he has no other choice. Lolz. Oh the joys of those ponies


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